Lee it's now June 2016. I still struggle but have learned to put a face on thing for the sake of everyone else. Your brother is getting married next week ..... I cry because you won't be there but I know through my faith your sleeping until we're together again in paradise. My lee if only you didn't get into your car if only you'd come home to me sooner if o my if only.... I'll cry until the day I die xxxx no one knows the pain xxxx